FLOORED!

 

Quite literally. At the amazing
behaviour us human beings indulge in. It's shocking man. Game players, the lot
of us. Especially those of the male species. Girls are far more mature in
this department. (Cue all you irate boys jumping up and down) - you know I Love
a reaction ;-)  Well, to be honest,  in my experience it has been mainly males.
Perhaps something to do with my openness and comfort with the feline variety, so
it probably has no bearing on anyone else.

The thing is, I know I have been guilty of it many times in
the past, as I'm sure lots of you have too. We all have "poor me" syndrome from
time to time. Or the "but you are responsible" child like tantrums. Yuk. We all
want and need Love and affection to very varying degrees.  But understanding how
you can go about trying to get it is a major factor in how you appear to and
affect other people in your life.

I have had some fairly major time out lately. I have had
less interaction with humans (on a personal level) than ever before, and its
been f***ing wonderful. It has made the most recent  friendships I have made
with people all the more grown up, comfortable and enjoyable. I have had lots of
time to look at myself.  And most importantly have looked at the complexities of
relationships I have had in the past which have been full of mistakes. I know
the only way to not repeat them is to understand them, which I now feel I do, so
am feeling great.

 

  During these months, my Love affair
with Music has become all the more intense. Someone hurts my feelings? I write
about it. I feel lonely? I sing. I need entertainment? I take my guitar out on a
walk and make and watch people smile.  It's great. If it wont play well I'll put
it down, if I don't like the sound of something I turn it off, it's sexy,
extremely powerful and I am in Love with it.

I am relaxed. Yep, there are nasty
things going on in the world. Yes, there are many humans in it who are perhaps
best avoided. But the major reason for me feeling content at the present mo is
the fact that I am keeping my own boundaries. Staying safe and surrounding
myself with things I Love. Yeah, I am indulging (ha!) but not in anything of the
human "game" variety - apart from football of course. ;-)

I'm off out now. I want to catch the first support for the
Stones tonight. I've never seen the Charlatans before and by George that
singer's a pretty one! Yippeeeee!

I hope this moment lasts and I can control my ranting.
Adieu for now my precious ones.....

XXXX